Similar to Ambrosius who does not possess the characteristics of an effective abbot, Agnes does not have the traits to be a devout nun. A nun who truly serves the Lord chooses this path driven by genuine interest. From Agnese's disinterest it is clear that her passion extends outside the convent. We learn that since childhood Agnes has been expected to take the habit. Her aunt states: "Donna Inesilla swore that if she [Agnese] were cured of her illness, the child then living in her womb, if it were a girl, would be dedicated to Saint Clare (134)." Agnese's journey to the convent is sculpted by a multitude of poor intentions. First, all her life it is ingrained in her mind that, due to the healing of her physical illness, it is necessary for her to enter a convent. Similar to Ambrosio's experience, a predestined life in the monastery does not guarantee success. The convent represents a pending payment and a consolation prize. Later, when the abbot discovers Agnes' secret, she admits: "I believed that [Raimondo] was lost to me forever, and I threw myself into a convent for reasons of desperation" 70. Entry into the convent should be a first choice, not a backup plan. . Agnes chooses the convent to escape from her true desires: her love, Raymond. Agnes says: “Long before I took the veil, Raymond was the master of my heart: he inspired me with the purest and most irreproachable passion” 70. Agnes’
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